"Person of Integrity"

I looked up "integrity" on Meriam-Webster online and here's what it said.

Integrity - firm adherence to a code of especially moral or artistic values: incorruptibility. synonym: honesty

Honesty - fairness and straighforwardness of conduct. synonym: integrity

Then under honesty it says "integrity implies trustworthiness and incorruptibility to a degree that one is incapable of being false to a trust, responsibility, or plege.



Recently I have recieved two phone calls. First from Ruby and then awhile later from Inkling. They were both concerning the same matter and they both needed to simply "talk it out" instead of mulling it around in their heads. I was the one who was chosen for both these phone calls. My problem is that I can be a rather judgemental little b**** at times. I listened and then gave my opinion on the matter, even though it hadn't been asked for. I apologize for this guys!! My opinion is strong because this matter touches a very sensitive fear of mine and therefore in my eyes makes it one of the unpardonable sins... to me... thankfully not to God.

For those of you that read Inklings post earlier today, this is gonna sound like I'm skirting the subject because I am, but just bare with me. Both Inkling and Ruby told me that back in the day the person who has done this heinous thing was a "person of integrity". Inkling went as far as to say that this person had as much integrity as H.D., which for Inkling is the highest standard there is. I'm glad I'm not the Judge because I'm struggling with this. How is it possible for someone who has such amazingly high integrity to do something so incredibly unbelievable. I simply don't get it!! I can't figure it out!! The more I've thought about the more confused I've gotten. Inkling and Ruby are both forgiving and gracious. I on the other hand don't even know this person and I can't go there right now.

I was talking to my mom earlier and she presented me with some things to think about, which is not unusual. Inkling'll tell ya, Mom is good at making you see the other side of an issue. I'm just convinced that this person is "bad". After all, how can someone who did something so awful have any good in them. So in my judgemental, it's black or white mind, this person is either good or their bad. My Mom said to me " Everything's not - either/or". Meaning that just because this person did something that isn't good, doesn't make them a bad person. She actually went as far as to say this person is a "person of integrity" because they turned themself in before they were caught doing this thing. She used the example of someone who did some horrible things to her growing up, things that have caused alot of heartache and trauma for my mom, but this same person was an amazing person and influence in my life. She wasn't all bad. I guess I get it in one part of my brain, but the other part still hasn't wrapped it fingers around it yet!!

All I know, is that right now, I'm not feeling like a "person of integrity". I'm feeling judgemental and nasty. What's wierd is that this doesn't even involve me, but it's become such a problem in our society, that it seems like it's infiltrating my little corner of the world and it has got to stop - NOW!!

I don't wanna make this about myself, it's so not. There's many families out there in our world that are suffering and struggling because of this problem and one's similar to it!! I wish there was a way we could fix it, but alas only God can take someone's heart and transform it. We can all pray. Let's pray that there is healing in this particular family and in all the others that have been hurt and separated by similar things. My heart aches for them, the husbands, the wives, the children...

Well, it's time to close up shop for the night!! 'til tommorrow, goodnight!!