...any chance I may have had for Mother of The Year. I'm tired. I'm stressed. I have a headache. I'm hopping angry about the med bills and the stupid hospitals. I yelled at Bee... loud. She ran off crying. When Smart Guy left she told him she had to go with him because she might need him. While in my mind I know she does that all the time, my heart says it's because she doesn't want to be with me right now because she's scared I'll yell again.
Ugh!
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Grace
She will be ok. She loves you for who you are and will give you hugs and kisses when some time has passed.
I am sending my hugs your way. I know they will not make this go away but maybe somehow you can get some comfort from them. I am praying for you.
sweety..she can sense you are stressed. Look at this way..She's trying to give mamma a break and be with daddy for a bit. she loves you..She would do anything for you and has been there for you in your darkest hours. Always knowing when to hug you, when to talk to you, and when to simply just let you be. She will be there again sis. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Love yourself. She loves ya. I love ya.
This is off topic, but I wanted to let the folks who read Grace's blog from her church know something. I've posted definite ways to help on my blog (June 20th posting). Go read it, and please pass it on. And Jim, if you are reading this....you got your 15 seconds of fame. For everyone else - the nice women at her soon-to-be-former church, please go and see what I've written so you can help.
Awww, my friend Grace. We're in the same boat. God's grace will see our children, and our wounded mom's ego's through.
A couple of days before the boys left for camp, my son was demanding something that I was unable to give ... and he was pushing it ...and I turned around and screamed (in his face)
"Do you not understand your dad is in the hospital???"
I felt awful and felt like I had no business being a mother nor did I deserve to be a wife or have a family. I certainly did not deserve to be loved by my children.
Yet, God, knew that I'd been pushed beyond measure. Was I right, absolutely not. Was I human? Absolutely. Will my son get over it. Yes, will he forget it? hopefully ... well,maybe not. Maybe he needs to remember it, at least for a while.
Mom's aren't perfect ... and they don't need an example of perfect parents. They need an example of parents who love God with all their hearts, who when they mess up, repent ..and give it to god and show them what to do when they mess up. Perfect people are intimidating.
You're in my prayers my new buddy.
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