Misunderstanding

I have to apologize to my blogger readers. If you just happen across my blog or get it from a link on someone else's blog that's fine. I love that there are people out there all over the place who enjoy my blog as I do so many that I read. The idea that I have been "inspiring" to even one person makes my head swell a tad bit though. I know, I'm pathetic.

The problem is this... someone in our church gave one of the "higher ups" in our church my ANONYMOUS blog address so they could get the scoop on what Grace is writing on her blog thru all of this. Part of me wants them all to read it. I want them to know my heart. I want them to know the hurt they've caused. The wounded child inside me wants them to hurt like we hurt. But I've been informed that instead of reading it and listening and feeling our pain, they've walked across the hall and said "listen to this, can you believe this" type of things. To be honest this makes me want to put on a really nasty post pointing fingers at one specific person that I know has been reading and has not told my hubby or myself. As a matter of fact I did put one on. I hit publish around 1 am this morning. I went to bed with a headache. I couldn't sleep at all, and around 4 am I got out of bed, copied and pasted it to a new post, saved it, didn't publish it, and then deleted the original. So, while you guys didn't get to read it, unless of course you were up in the middle of the night lurking or in another time-zone, I still have it. One slip of the mouse and it's published for all to see.

So, for some unwritten blog etiquette... if you read a friend's blog and that friend uses pseudonyms for privacy, do not give out their address unless you have their permission. Some people don't get it. They think because my blog is public that it's out there for all to see anyway, and I get that, I really do. The fact of the matter is this though, unless you're a family member, a friend, a friend of a friend that I've come to consider a personal friend, you don't know who I am personally unless I tell you who I am. No one else has the right to "reveal me" by giving out my address with my name.

I want to say thank you to the person who "delurked" themself in my last post. I don't know them, they found me thru someone else's blog. That's fine, I expect that. I think the circle of blogdom is an amazing friendship tool of our time if used properly and respectfully. The way I've come to accept this move and all the crap that has gone with it has been an amazing show of everyone's prayers thru my blog family. The people that I'm wanting to "delurk" themselves are the ones from my church that were actually given my address and told whose it was. My name's not really Grace by the way, for any of you that don't know that!

Just know that I love all you guys and don't want to go private. I think I'm just gonna ride this wave. It'll pass in a few weeks when we get moved to our new church and leave all this crap (except the enormous amount of medical bills we've got from the colonoscopy, three surgeries, and check-up out the wazoo since February that still havn't been paid for) behind and move on to a new church family.